i'm bored. totally bored. i feel like a mosquitoe buzzing around in the universe with no aim no target no goal. this job is really too boring. so i'm trying to spice it up a little. haha!! everyone's gone off for lunch. but smart me has decided to stay for an extra 15 minutes so as to be able to go for lunch alone(with rachel tang). i'll leave at 12.15-12.20. and be back at 2! HAHA. i've learnt the ways of cheating around the office. seriously i can't see myself not cheating if this goes on for another few more weeks. haha! when there's an assignment, i'm flooded all the way up my nose. when there's no assignment, i get caught for sleeping. hallelujah... so i'm trying my best. REALLY MY BEST. so stall for as much time as possible doing these assignments :
Expenses to build-up for the Nagoya Office
Japan Relocation Project
RGP Tokyo Relocation Project
Cashflow_India-June-Dec07
CashFlowMaster010207
that's about all i have to do. shall spend the rest of my working life here doing this since i've completed the Hong Kong region.. darnit. why does the company in HongKong not have any other more complicated matters. suckkkk. haha!
oh yay. i just got caught surfing the net.. CRAP!! oh no oh no. oh well. haha!
i learnt the art of cheating today. so it ain't a LOSS. haha!! i'll hon my skills for a few more days. haha!
- Mood:
quixotic - Music:Shine on by Jet
work work work. starting my third day of work tomorrow. hope i won't fall asleep again.. even if i do, i pray that no one will notice me.. heehee. i've accumulated 8 blisters already. if i really do have a choice, i'll quit the job RIGHT NOW!!! haha. oh well. by the way. i've to thank Rachel Tang a lot a lot a lot. she gave me her wedges because i couldn't wear a normal pair of heels. haha! thank you thank you thank you.
i salute you who wears the heels. really. you're my superstar.. heels should be meant for you and only you.
- Mood:
apathetic - Music:From where you are by Jason Wade of Lifehouse
in the middle of the night. I woke up with this dreadful feeling in me which I couldn't associate with. so I sat up and pondered for a little while before I reached out for my folder with yh's letters in it. I know I shouldn't keep these. I know I should have thrown them away, I know I should have burnt them away. but I didn't. and I don't know why I kept them within reach all the time. this is the first time I’m flipping through them in 4 years. I didn't know it seemed so serious at that time. so many letters within such a short time.
I was discombobulated at first. then the letters perturbed my thoughts. it swirled up something in me which I had compressed for four freaking years. I wanted so much to punch something up. then came the blues. tears of don't-know-what came down. I recognize this feeling but I couldn't quite put my finger to it. I know I felt this four years ago. but I wasn't mature enough to comprehend, neither am I now.. then came the nascent wave of repose. everything seemed so fuzzy a few years ago. a nebulous recollection of our times together. its starting to piece itself together now. the mist seems to be dissipating now. I’ve only got one life. I’ve got to do what I really want to do and not always listen to what everybody wants. I can't satisfy everyone, but I can satisfy myself. else, it'll not be my life anymore. would it?
take for all that's worth. and give like you've never given before because you know its like a boomerang.. even if you'll end up as a pauper, you know you've done your best and put in all that's worth. regret should be like an influenza virus. when you've caught it, you know your immunity system will somehow get better and stronger. is this what I think it is?
I’m waiting for t.t gal. have you seen her?
- Mood:
sore - Music:Somebody's me by Enrique Iglasias
i'll miss the christmas spirit in the air. and the crowded streets.
i'll miss all the stupid things we did and still want to do. haha!;p
and of course. all the unglam faces foreverzxzxzx
BERNICE:
DENISE:
HWEE YI:
MICHELLE:
NOELLE:
VALERIE:
YI TIAN:
YU JIA:
although we always do stupid things such as this:
and this:
but i really really enjoyed your company. as in really really really. haha! hope the next year will be as enjoyable as this and the previous and the previous previous to infinite. haha!
- Mood:
awake - Music:Bryan Adams - we're going to win
rushed home. threw my shoes outside the door step stripped within 3 seconds and got into my berms and grabbed any shirt and rushed out again. noleelee requested me to be there at taka asap. so i did. i'm such a good friend right noleelee! haha. she was with sheng yu. his present for her was...i was unable to identify with the picture. well. its the thought that counts i guess. haha! then we had a little chill out session at yoshinoya while we waited for time to crawl by. then we rushed to meet yujia. and original plan was to watch the musical fountain. however.. tickets were sold out by the time we arrived. oh well. i guess my birthday present from yujia was dashed. haha!
went to vivo city and walked walked walked. we went to daiso and had a 'costume party' then to animal farm to look for a shampoo for yujia's dog. noelle just had to try the cologne on herself. i meant DOG cologne. my goodness. i think she's trying to turn kenzo on. but the smell was too musty and too...... SATURATED.. noelle had some on her sleeve and i spent the rest of the night complaining about it. haha! we went to the kopitiam in vivo to sit as ang yujia claimed she was hungry. haha! okay. i was starting to get a little tired and i wanted to go home.. haha. then noleelee said she had to leave first. haha! okay. i was so confused! on my hands was my handphone. my auntie called me at the same time as noelle had to go, so i didn't even get to say goodbye!! and ang yu jia still didn't want to go home. HAHA. we ended up ordering ginseng chicken soup as yujia said it smelled good. EEUCK. i hate that ginseng smell. we only finished half of it. ew. then yujia said she wanted to go to the rooftop.. what's there at the rooftop?? kissing couples.. so we did. i traipsed along the rooftop then suddenly i saw noelle teh xiaowen. right. i thought she went home. so they blindfold me WITH THEIR HANDS. haha! then i saw thomas and naraen with the b-day cake. haha! okay. i was shocked.. haha!!i didn't even realise that they would be celebrating. haha! and the balloons. haha!! we took loads of pictures. haha! loved that moment. haha! how long has valerie gone without a cake on her birthday. haha!! yay!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! you make me feel so embarrassed. haha!
went home after that. i don't know what to say about it. but hope everything goes well. world peace starts with peace with each other. Lord God Lamb of God who took away the sins of the world said," Peace be to you. and to all his people on Earth" let's keep the balance there okay? if things get out of hand. call me. i'm just a call away. don't worry. i won't hurt. at most help to block if it gets out of hand. haha. PEACE TO HIS PEOPLE ON EARTH!!
- Mood:
anxious
saw this really funny thing :
Daniel wakes up at home with a huge hangover.
He forces himself to open his eyes, and the first thing he sees is a couple of aspirins and a glass of water on the side table.
He sits down and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and pressed.
Daniel looks around the room and sees that it is in perfect order, spotless, clean.
So is the rest of the house.
He takes the aspirins and notices a note on the table."Honey, breakfast is on the stove, I left early to go shopping. Love You!"
So he goes to the kitchen and sure enough there is a hot breakfast and the morning newspaper.
His son is also at the table, eating.
Daniel asks: "Son, what happened last night?"
His son says: "Well, you came home around 3 am drunk and delirious.
Broke some furniture, puked in the hallway, and gave yourself a black eye when you stumbled into the door."
Confused, Daniel asks: "So,why is everything in order and so clean, and breakfast is on the table waiting for me?"
His son replies" "Oh, that! Mom dragged you to the bedroom, and when she tried to take your pants off, you said,
"LADY,LEAVE ME ALONE,I"M MARRIED!!"
(Guys you better memorise this till it becomes second nature.)
MORAL of the tale:Self-induced hangover -- $100.00
Broken furniture -- $2,000.00Breakfast -- $10.00
Saying The Right Thing While Drunk -- PRICELESS
- Mood:
blah
we had an earlier christmas celebration at yujia's house while we prepared for A levels.. haha.
check it out man!!
HERE
had a little birthday surprise for noelle the other day. haha! it was really damn funny. details are all on her blog. (december 25th post). i'm too tired to blog about anything
.OH! and the day before, half of the clique went for yujia's church christmas celebrations. we watched the chang's production which was really funny. haha!! check it out! haha!
a lot of things happened within a short span of time. i think i forgot most of it already. oh well.. haha!! i hope the future holds more then it seems! haha!
i wish tomorrow will never come. i wish december never had a 26.. maybe then, i won't be here whining and whining and whining. hate myself..
- Mood:
envious
okay. had the family chalet. wasn't too bad. except that the only attraction i saw was the television. i didn't have scv connections in my house. so i did a discovery channel marathon. haha!! stared at the television for one whole day. watched really intriguing shows like real superhuman and powerzone :future weapons and the haunting. woohoo. so much better then a normal television channel. i loved the powerzone episode!! there were M777, the OH-47chinook! and the C130 transport and more more more! their phrase? "its nothing like starting the morning with a BANG!" haha. went out early the next morning with my aunt before checking out. somehow i feel like she's a mother to me.. i feel more at ease and cosy with her.. haha! pictures!
pictures are here!
cycled with naraen on monday. true to noelle's words.. my butt ached. haha! it rained the whole day! okay. maybe the first couple of hours were cloudy. then God cried. haha! maybe he didn't want to see me injure my butt. haha! ;p but we were all the way in changi park! it was 7900m from east coast park. gave up fighting with the rain in the end and got drenched. it felt so nice to play in the rain again. so happy. just like last time but without the company. haha. when we were stuck in the rain in this shelter on our return journey, there were commercial planes landing and taking off. didn't really get a good picture of it though but i tried..
look closely! we you can see some structures resembling planes! do you see the SIA signs?
taking off and landing. each time it does that, i'll think of a new beginning. no idea why. i feel so invigorated everytime i see a plane taking off or landing.. and there was a crescent coloured plane!! onward with zeal and zest! forward we of CGS!!
my bike.. kinda rusty but reminds me of my old bike which the banglas stole.
this bike trail was damn fun. i'm going again soon! haha. i just told yinhao about it and now he's excited too. haha! i guess very soon i'll get a butt ache again. heh heh.
TUESDAY
first day of work again! this time in the zoo as a carpark attendant. the carpark machine spoiled during a thunderstorm, i guess the thunder was just getting a tad too friendly with the machine and it pissed the machine off so much that it refuses to function..had real fun the whole day doing stupid things to amuse the 2 guys working with me :salleh and samuel. i didn't know the security cameras RECORD everything down. i danced the whole day through and did stupid things like waving to the camera. so much so that the management came down to warn me about appropriate postures, ettiquette and behaviour. oh whatever.. haha! i'm just being friendly ;D it was my first and last day at work there i think.. and this is why you see me typing this entry early this morning. hope they don't terminate me!!!!! i'll be so sad. haha!;p but for now i'm entitled to a free entry to the zoo and night safari!! what a happy thought :)
sometimes, i see my hamsters as human beings. i don't know why..
little narcissists trying to get the camera attention (left) . and little twits. acting cute in front of me, chewing his toes(right)
camaraderie.sticking to one another... and a little racist..
and multi-racial.. and some acting dead or just plain enjoyment, they do nothing but eat sleep shit and play!! how much better can life get (in their pathetic lifespan of 3 plus years..)
noelle, yujia!!! quick come back.. i'm bored. let's go play bball together :(
- Mood:
devious - Music:yumeji's theme
didn't even go to khatib adecco for a job interview thanks to the lazy bone..
rainy weather was today. nice nice rain. i was coaxed to a little nap. lulled by the soothing patters of the rain. haha!:p okay. i was just being lazy..
continued my search for a job online. so far i've sent out like 8 resumes. no replies yet. oh goodness gracious me, is it just me or is it that difficult to get a job with good pay.. darnit! sometimes... URGH
missed training again. really let sir leon down again and again.. but this time i really can't find my belt.. i think i've got to get one by next friday. and the closest store i know is in marina bay shopping centre. darn it.. one of these days i'll go i promise myself now. haha.
family outing tomorrow.. don't know what's going to happen though. its been so long since i've been in contact with my beloved grandma..haha. i don't know what to do with them when i go out with them tomorrow. feeling a little awkward now already. hope everything turns out fine tomorrow till sunday!! haha!
some funny conversation. haha!
A: Do you know what I hate? I hate rhetorical questions.
B: yeah, me too
A: I mean, you don't expect an answer to that do you?
- Mood:
amused - Music:We Intertwined by The Hush Sound
i think i've tonsilities again. its much worse now i think. shite.
conscience : good. so you'll stop eating so much, you big fat pig.
me : ya. probably. but you don't have to remind me that i'm fat.
conscience : ya and ugly.
me : fine. you are such an ass. shut up.
i would love to be able to think deeper sometimes.
to be able to reach into the unbound abyss where noone but you have access to. i know i have the potential. just too lazy to reach out. even when i do try, its more of a weak attempt. i'll ask myself. do i really want to do this? do i really want to know the truth? i know that my feeble attempts are only there to stem up my uncertainties. and pressure is building up inside. i know these ventures are self-illusional. maybe i just want to live in the shadows and not see the light...
but other times its better to be shallow. earthly desires get to you and your guilt trips all seemed worthwhile after all. HAHA
- Mood: calm
- Music:Let there be love by oasis
i think i better do something meaningful with my life while it lasts. haha! who knows what's going to happen tomorrow.. but for TOMORROW. can someone ask me out please please please please please. haha. talking to myself again.. shit. i've contracted the noelle-syndrome!! haha!!
i want to play bball desperately!! call me out to play bball anytime people!! haha!
4S1 outing soon. vivo again. haha! is that our official meeting place? see you guys soon!!
- Mood:
curious - Music:Le plus beau du quartier by carla bruni
met noelle at tanjong pagar to collect our miserable meagre pay.. she was an hour late again. what a punctual person. haha. but wasn't her fault.. heeheehee i just feel like whining..
was late again for the soccer thing... i was even less on form today. don't know what's wrong with me.. actions a little retarded now.. hah!! i felt really damn guilty and sorry. all i could do was a standing contrition...
bathing was damn funny though.. we brandished our powerful soccer-ful leg. haha! we managed to manouvre our shampoo and shower foam bottles to each cubicle because we only had one set. haha! how cool was that. so we aren't bimbos. haha!
our convo went like that:
noelle : eh, you know they can hear us from outside
*laughs laughs laughs
me and yujia : WHAT!! ARE YOU FOR REAL!!!!NO WAY#@$%^&*^%^$%
went out for dinner with them.. pretty enjoyable. haha! laughing all the while. reminded me of last time after canoe trainings or after some bball games with the innova guys. haha!! pure adrenaline. haha! and thomas had to remind me about my caffeine allergy.. right. i'll try to remember it. haha.
job orientation tomorrow!! hope everything goes well. cross your fingers your toes and your eyes!wish me luck!! haha
noelle and me tried to rush for 3 trains today. out of three, we got in 2!!! so success rate is 66.6666666666666666666666666666666666666
- Mood: crazy
- Music:forever love by TVXQ
took 67 down from cck to tampines. actually intended to alight at bedok. but both of us fell asleep no thanks to the buddha-ful weather. we sat all the way to tampines. and i actually had butt cramps! what the.. i didn't know the butt cramps too. had to limp for a while to the 'yong da' building. okay. got a job there. but its like 1200 a month..6 days work week. it sounds like a pretty fun job though. i don't know. there's an orientation on wednesday. will go down and check it out that day... my butt is still cramping till now... occasionally though.. stupid butt.
oh! had a VERY INTERESTING talk with noelle. continue-ing later after dinner. haha!!
soccer with the bintan people tomorrow. whoop-dee-doo.......not exactly looking forward to it though.. can't play soccer for nuts.. wish me luck then. haha!
- Mood: blank
reminisce:
travelled to bintan from 3rd dec to 6th dec. (was supposed to last till 7th due to my grandfather's death anniversary ceremony. but i could have stayed till 7th since the ceremony was in the morning and my ferry couldn't make it in time.. didn't dare to tell yujia the angsana lest suffer her wrath *heehee*)
people who went :
- yujia
- noelle
- valerie
- mark
- shengyu
- thomas
- gary
- siva
- narean
- qi liang
we didn't really take much pictures there as i'm completely not a
photo whore. neither were the people there..haha!but it was totally completely awesome. everything wasn't as great as what i thought it would be but i guess everything was ironed out eventually. and i meant everything. went out with peiyin yesterday on a shop hunt cum window shopping. kept singing yoosu's champ elysees meets 'O' Jung Ban Hap.. actions included. totally embarrassed ourselves out. but fun fun fun.bought a beanie each! but not the ones in the pictures.. this winter shop really is nice enough to let us try on their beanies:D hope to do more of such stuff. haha!
perhaps i'm thinking too much. i don't want to know. i rather remain ignorant. i want to be the last to know
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:Once Again by Frankie Jordan.
school is really crap nowadays. i don't see the point of having got to go school just for my attendance. its really a whole lot of bullshit. i don't see the point of attending useless lectures in which lecturers go on harping about how they've actually tried to help us and in fact haven't. its such contradiction, them. i want a little change around here! lectures and tutorials are really a total waste of time. rotting butts and fly-swatting moments. what else is there to attend school for! ARH really.this is pure insanetism. we should put an end to this while we still can do so. the school ought to relocate their emphasis. inerrantism, somebody?
bwah. whatever it is. i'm still hooked onto literature.
The doleful eye,
her beloved guy;
A wretched lie,
the gracious lie.
eat that you young banana shoot of a fool. you cowdung smeared madagascar hissing cockroach
- Mood: blah
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